The Calder Family

The Calder Family

Monday, April 19, 2010

A new post!

Well, it's been about 7 months since my last post! The reason for that is I didn't really feel I could completely fill in the picture without being too emotional! I wanted to be able to post when I felt good and happy about my situation, and right now, I am!

I'll have to go back and explain what we were doing P90X, and a lot of people asked why we ended up not continuing. The real reason is that I became pregnant! Kevin and I had planned to go on a cruise to the Eastern Carribbean in the beginning of November, which is why we were doing P90X. The monday before the cruise, I was waiting in line to get Ethan and Kristen's H1N1 shot (we waited a LONG time), and we were only a few people away from the nurses, and I realized that I was starting to miscarry. I was devistated of course. Luckily, one of my friends was in line with me, and she was able to console me as I was crying. I then took my little ones to the nurse, and she gave me a look and said, "I know it's almost harder for Mom than the kiddos to get the shot"! She thought I was tearing up because of the vaccinations! I explained that no, I was fine with getting them vaccinated.

Kevin met me at emergency, and I had an ultrasound. Even though I was at 10 weeks, the baby was the size of an 8 week old fetus, and there was no heart beat. I was really heartbroken. I saw my family doctor, and she said that it should still be fine for us to go on our cruise. There would be a doctor on board if we needed one.

So, Kevin's mom arrived and we took off for our cruise! It was so nice to get away and be by ourselves. I was still in mourning, but it was nice to just be with Kevin and not have to worry about anything else. Anyways, we got on the cruise on Saturday, had a "sea" day on Sunday and then Monday we were heading to the Dominican Republic. We were there about 5 minutes, when I rushed to the nearest toilet (a port-a-potty!!!) and realized I was in trouble and was hemorraging. I was in shock, bawling, and Kevin didn't really see where I had gone, so it took him a minute
to find me. We were able to get back on the ship, went to the doctor, and we ended up spending most of the day there! They were able to get things under control (I won't go into details!) and I was able to go back to our room that night. The next port was the US Virgin Islands, so I had to get an ultrasound to make sure all was okay, and it was, and we had a wonderful rest of a trip. We even got a bit of sun!! All in all, even considering the really scary aspects of the trip, it was a really nice vacation with Kevin.

We still wanted to have another baby, but we were both a little worried. We ended up getting pregnant, but I was so scared that something would happen, that I seriously was stressed out whenever I felt something "weird". There was even a time when I seriously, with very strong emotion, felt like the baby didn't make it. I cried like I've never cried before! I was so full of grief. It was awful.

BUT, I guess I'm announcing to anyone who actually reads this, I have made it through the first trimester and I am officially in my second! I am almost 14 weeks along, and I am due October 22. We are pretty excited to have a fall baby. I went to the first prenatal checkup and was able to hear the strong heartbeat, and teared up because it just made it that more real that I was actually pregnant and the baby was okay!! I feel big, but I'm pretty sure that a fourth pregnancy is usually bigger than the previous ones! Anyways, that is our news, and I didn't want to say anything until we were in the clear. So there you have it!


The Bings said...

We knew it! I suspected something the other week at church, and so did Brandon and for him to suspect something is pretty good. I'm super excited for you guys and am here to help out with anything... that's what second counsellors in RS are for... right?

Beckey said...

Oh that is SO exciting! I'm really happy for you. I have been wondering if you try again. I think I told you that I had a miscarriage between Brooklyn and Halle; so when I was pregnant with Halle I was the exact same way you wrote about...feeling like anything that was "weird" was so scary. I remember having a couple days of morning sickness and then one day it was COMPLETELY gone...I thought for sure that I was going to miscarry again. So I totally understand what you mean by that. I''m so sorry again about the miscarriage and how horrible you felt about it. You almost made me tear up reading about it. I'm happy that everything it okay with this one and PLEASE let me know if there is anything I can do for you especially with Kevin gone.

Ashley said...

I am so excited for you guys! I know how hard it is to miscarry! I was the same way with this one, I was not excited at all to tell anyone we were pregnant just incase it happened again. I still think anything that feels "weird" is something bad.
I am sure everything will work out for you this time!
You make extremely cute kids!!

The Full Nelson said...

So excited for you guys! I am so sorry that you had to go through such an ordeal too. I hope that you feel great for the rest of this pregnancy! Wonder if you'll have another little boy to keep Ethan company!

Tamara Moses said...

Congratulations!!! I am so happy for you guys. I thought you might be when I saw you at the meetings in Cole Harbour the other week!!!Yay. I find the more kids you have, the faster you get bigger. I couldn't wear my regular pants by 12 weeks when I was pregnant with #4. Good luck with everything!!!!

jdm said...

I am so happy for you and your family! You have one of the sweetest families I know and we love you lots!

Just Rhonda said...

HUGE congrats!

Richards Family said...

Congrats on the new baby! that is so exciting. I am so sorry to hear about the miscarriage. They are definately hard to deal with. Good Luck with everything. We sure miss you guys!